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Xxnamexx past present future. Hi, my name is Nana Paramitra, commonly called Nana by my friends and family. I am now only 17 years old. I am a mature sawo-skinned person with cute curly hair. My height is only 160 cm and the weight is about 46 kg, this weight is ideal for teenagers my age.

I was very shy with someone I didn't know, and I couldn't easily get along with someone I had just met. Maybe it's because I've been through a lot of things that have been a burden that I've been through over the years.

I live in a very simple house, which is probably too small for 5 people to live in. Father, mother, and two brothers. What else do you want, 'cause this is our only home. We can be satisfied with ourselves. Over time, the house almost collapsed.

However, in this situation, my parents complained. Maybe I'm a person who complains a lot and feels the world is unfair to me. Do you know why I have always felt that the world is very, very unfair to me?

The neighborhood I live in with my family today used to be a place where massive prostitution was going on here. The place where I was born and raised in a place that is possible for outsiders is considered a disgusting and unfit place to live.

My family and I have been stuck in such a difficult situation for decades. But what can be done, this is all we have. Be patient and accept what our Lord has given us. The passion for life that we make a motivation to live a difficult life like this.


"Mom, why do we live here?? Why don't you just move house?? I don't want to live here." that's the complaint I always tell my mom. However, my mother only answered with one little smile without saying a word to me.

I always wondered why my mother always just smiled and what my mother's smile meant. After a long time, I was a little aware maybe because my complaints against my mother were only going to add to my mother's mind. Since then, I've only given up. Maybe it's the destiny of my life with my family or God still has other better plans for me and my family in the future.

Again, I was tested by God. When a friend asked: "Why is your house there? Is it convenient for you to stay there?" Other questions are also always asked repeatedly, as if they would be angry because I live here, a disgusting place and full of profanity.

Only "naughty" people want to get in. For every question I ask, I can just grin and say "It's okay", and then leave my friend. When I got home, I went straight into the room and cried because I remembered it.

Days go by and my age continues to grow but, I still look like a teenager. The pressure I felt was also getting heavier. Not only from my friends, but also from the bad guys who laughed at me as I passed by.I felt so scared and ashamed. Usually, in a riot, people misunderstand. Surprisingly they didn't realize it was due to the influence of booze. This is what increased my fear of going out and playing with friends.

My friends have never been playing to this house, maybe because of such conditions, and maybe their parents strictly forbid them to play in my house. The sadness I feel is obvious. In any case, I realized that I was just a child trapped in a dark life.

Every day I can only pray to God for my life and my family to better than this."Lord, give my best to my parents. Both for the world and for the hereafter." Yes, that's all I can ask of God. The rest I submit to what He has given me".

Until one day the Lord answer my prayer. This place of prostitution is officially closed by the government. I thanked God so much. Happy?? Of course, that's how I feel. Today is the day I'm going to be, which I've been craving all along. Where there be no more "naughty" people teasing me, no more drunk people fighting, No more negative hustles in front of me, no more scorn from the community, no more questions piercing my mind, and most of all, with this my friends will probably be allowed to come and play to my house by their parents.

After being closed for a few days, I felt something was missing in my life. I am lonely. No more crowds on my doors of the house. No more passers-by. It used to be a house where many people lived, but now there are some residents who moved somewhere. In fact, there are only a few families here, including my family, who are all locals.

Thank God. You have given me and my family a better life. I promise God. I'm not going to whine to Mom anymore and make her smile fake again to me. With this life, I'm sure my family and I will be more excited and more trying for a better life. I promise God. I'm going to be the best for my family.

It takes high patience for the test given by God. But behind that will come a result of our patience. Just waiting for the day the results come. Keep the spirit of living life and keep trying to be the best. Don't forget to keep praying and thanking God.